Excited to see what is behind the next door.

I received a message yesterday from the Grandmother of the two girls. We were going to go meet them this weekend but plans have changed. At first I was angry, hurt and felt betrayed. Then I gathered my senses and was grateful for this woman who cares so much for her girls that she is willing to what is best for them. I was heart broken and so sad at the opportunity we would have had to raise those beautiful girls. However, she knows what is best and I agree with her decision completely.

They have found another family who lives close to them that is interested in adopting them. Which would mean they would always be close to their biological family which is a great blessing. We were disappointed but understanding to their needs. After all, being a good mother requires doing what is best for children, even if it isn't what you want.

I'm grateful for the opportunity that I had to share in the lives of these people and for the friendship that was formed. If only briefly and I will continue to pray that they are blessed with all they stand in need of.

As for us we move on to the next step in the adoption process. Being approved. Wait? Still waiting? Really? Seriously? Yup. Still waiting. Our caseworker is working so hard for us and we are so grateful. We also know that Heavenly Father has a plan for us and when it comes into place it will be the best thing for everyone. We are excited to see what will come and are really looking forward to meeting our future birth mom and welcoming her with open arms into our lives.

P.S. If anyone knows of someone in Alabama that can do home studies please let me know. They have to have MLSW, PIP and something else. Can't remember right now but pass it on if you know of someone.

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First I must say I love Pandora Mormon Tabernacle Choir channel. Best songs ever!

Next I have to say that next week can't get here soon enough! We are going to Chattanooga to meet the babes we are hoping to adopt. I am so nervous and my patience, or lack there of, is starting to show. As if it hasn't already. I have this problem with waiting, always have, always will. I had a doctor tell me once that I'm a control freak. I wouldn't go that far but I like control. That's why it has been such a hard road coming to the place where I totally rely on the Father in all things.

We have found an attorney that is going to be most helpful. He actually took the time to call me back, not knowing for sure whether we would hire him, and talk me through the entire process. We will hire him. He is the most affordable and thankfully the one I get a good feeling about.

I already know it's going to be so hard to leave next weekend. I am so looking forward to it but I am really nervous! Mostly about the girls. I am praying they feel the same about me as I do them. What a blessing this whole process has been.

And that's it. My brain is not functioning properly today.

Wow! No spelling errors today. Maybe.

Happy Sunday

We got to see our new Stake Presidency today, well, minus one but he's there all the time so we've seen him. Their whole persona's have changed. I love to see men with these heavy callings and the way they grow in an instant. The whole process is amazing.

Still waiting for our two weekend's from now. Time is slowly going. Lawyers are lawyers and won't return phone calls and home study's are going to be happening soon. I'm enjoying Josey and loving her every moment. Well, not the sassy ones but all the others. We've had lots of sass lately. Not sure what her deal is but hopefully just a bump we will get over soon. We are certainly working through it.

The Spirit at church today was very strong. I love Sundays like this. And now dinner with friends and family. Can't ask for more. Except the rest of my family. But soon enough...