Josey sweetly spilled a cup of water over my cell phone so it now buzzes, apparently when I talk to people. However, the buzz is only on their side, so either I need a new phone or they need new ears. I'm going with the new phone so I cashed in our insurance on our att plan and I am getting a new phone sent out. It's blue not green which is super sad but it should work. Here's hoping.
Before Donnie left for work we were discussing the fact that we were going to have to sit in the 3 hours a Tuesday night class for 10 weeks and listen to someone tell us how to be parents. Now, we know we are not by any means perfect parents but we do strive to be the best we can be. Minus the screaming fits. Mine, not Josey's. So we decided that our tax return is the amount it is for a reason. I'll come back to the rest later.
Yesterday I was able to help out a friend and there was more received on my end then on theirs. I got to hold one of the cutest little boys ever! And while I was doing that I fell in love with the idea of a baby. Then later we went to the Teel's to help with the heater/ac, Donnie not me and mostly Jerry not him, and while I was playing with their little one I realized I want a baby. Josey will just have to deal with being four years older because I WANT A BABY!!!!
So this morning I woke up and went to my parents to use their phone so that I could hear and got my phone situation taken care of. Then I called LDSFS to set up an appt and get some paper work to get us a baby! So with that said, Robin, our caseworker, is sending it tomorrow and then she will either come here or we will go to Georgia.
I realized yesterday that with the whole adoption thing I was expecting to find our kid that accidentally went to the wrong family but that's not really how it works. God doesn't make mistakes. I think I've realized this before, but it didn't stick. So there isn't necessarily a kid out there that was supposed to come to us and didn't just a kid that somewhere is supposed to come to us and went to the right birth mom first. We are so anxious to get things rolling and find us a baby. It's going to be a fun and interesting journey.
So if any of you have a baby you don't want (I know, I know) or know someone who is putting a baby up for adoption let us know.
Tuesday, January 26, 2010
Friday, January 22, 2010
What a wonderful world...
Once upon a time there was a little boy. This little boy was a spaz and had red hair and freckles and was nothing but trouble. This little boy grew up and became a missionary. This missionary served with all his heart and shared the gospel with some of the most amazing people. This missionary grew up into a man and took his wife to the temple. This man and wife had a little girl and continued on in their happy lives. This man joined the Air National Guard so he could continue to serve. He served his country by going off to war, only to return home safely to his happy family. This man got a promotion and was living his life.
Then one day, he decided to join the magical, mysterious and sometimes evil world of politics. And it was here, in this world of politics, he found his other true love. His place where he could get paid to do what he loved. And I must say folks, he was and will continue to be amazing!
Yes, you guessed it, Donnie had his first political speech last night. He was so good! I am so very proud of him. As we was up there at that podium speaking his heart out, I realized that he had stepped into the place where he has always been meant to be. I am so grateful for the promptings of the spirit to lead us to the true places we are to be.
I can't believe I'm saying it but I'm going to love being a politicians wife. Not because of the politics (obviously) but because Donnie has found that thing that makes him light up every time he talks about it. I always knew he loved getting into heated discussions with friends and family but last night, he had the same light in his eyes that he did when he came home from his mission, the same light that is there every time we attend the temple. The same light that comes with every laugh and smile from our little girl. The same light that Heavenly Father has given us to know that there is one true church and that we are a part of it. He is going to help change the world, one vote at a time and I couldn't be more proud or happy of this place we have reached.
It's such a long road to get to the point where you know you are doing what you were meant to do. I got there when Josey was born. I'm a mommy and I love it! That's the job I've always wanted and how blessed am I to have it! It's the best job ever. And now, Donnie has it too. So often it is important and necessary to do what you can to support those you love. Now, he is going to get to do what he loves to support those he loves.
What a wonderful life.
Then one day, he decided to join the magical, mysterious and sometimes evil world of politics. And it was here, in this world of politics, he found his other true love. His place where he could get paid to do what he loved. And I must say folks, he was and will continue to be amazing!
Yes, you guessed it, Donnie had his first political speech last night. He was so good! I am so very proud of him. As we was up there at that podium speaking his heart out, I realized that he had stepped into the place where he has always been meant to be. I am so grateful for the promptings of the spirit to lead us to the true places we are to be.
I can't believe I'm saying it but I'm going to love being a politicians wife. Not because of the politics (obviously) but because Donnie has found that thing that makes him light up every time he talks about it. I always knew he loved getting into heated discussions with friends and family but last night, he had the same light in his eyes that he did when he came home from his mission, the same light that is there every time we attend the temple. The same light that comes with every laugh and smile from our little girl. The same light that Heavenly Father has given us to know that there is one true church and that we are a part of it. He is going to help change the world, one vote at a time and I couldn't be more proud or happy of this place we have reached.
It's such a long road to get to the point where you know you are doing what you were meant to do. I got there when Josey was born. I'm a mommy and I love it! That's the job I've always wanted and how blessed am I to have it! It's the best job ever. And now, Donnie has it too. So often it is important and necessary to do what you can to support those you love. Now, he is going to get to do what he loves to support those he loves.
What a wonderful life.
Wednesday, December 30, 2009
For the little boy to come into our lives...
Adoption is just right. I know that there is a time and a place for all things in life. If I would have learned that, truly learned that, I would have saved myself three years of heartache. However, had I done that I wouldn't have grown or learned as much as I have in these past three years. Ha! I said grown! Hopefully that's the case anyway.
I have been feeling like for a really long time that there is a little boy waiting to come into our family. What I didn't realize until a few months ago is that he is already here, waiting to be found by us, his family. The feeling is getting so much stronger that we are to search for our little boy.
When we started talking about adoption, before Donnie was deployed, I knew it was something we needed to do but was so uncomfortable with the idea. It wasn't the right time. Then we found out Donnie was getting deployed and had to stop, again, not the right time but I was relieved, not sad. I had it stuck in my head that the only way I would be happy with adding kids to our family was through us, biologically. I know that Heavenly Father prepares us for all things and that had I not gone through my life and trials I don't think I would be where I am now and ready to accept and fully open myself up to the idea of adoption.
What a blessing it is that these little babies can find homes that are better suited for them. Whether it's that they went to the wrong family ( I don't think so because God doesn't make mistakes) or that they just need more family (I'm thinking this might be it) we won't know but I do know that at this time in our lives adoption is going to work.
I am so excited about the possibility of our little boy. I know he's out there somewhere and it's just a matter of finding him. The first little boy that I fell in love with just by looking at him is a no go. We were told that we can't adopt out of state until six months after we finish the classes with DHR. They don't seem very interested however, in getting us started. Then yesterday something really strange happened. I have no idea if it's going to work out but it's a lead and that's what this life is all about, following the Spirit and following leads.
So a friend of mine, a dear friend of mine, was on Facebook yesterday and we were chatting and catching up and I told her we are going to adopt. She asked if we were going through the church and I said no. We really want to adopt a toddler. I want to have my own baby, which I know I will do someday, so we want a little bit older. Anyway, I told her we were going through the state and she asked how we felt about one that wasn't in the system and I said of course! We are open to all possibilities and she told me that a member of her family had a baby who is now 18 months old. We talked about it last night and we are definitely taking the lead. We were really excited about it. It's strange, I'm excited but calm. Those two things, I wasn't aware, could exist in the same place.
Anyway, we are waiting to hear back from her about what the grandparents want to do. She said they definitely want to be involved and how awesome is that? We would have three sets of grandparents for our kids! Not many are that blessed! So we are just waiting and praying. It's all very exciting! I'm going to have a little boy! EEEPPPP!!!!! Whether it's this boy or another, we are really excited! I'm even trying to think of what to do to the room. I'm thinking gray (thanks Corrie) with frogs. I love frogs. And then we can change it later to whatever but little boys like frogs right? How fun and so exciting! It's so true when one door closes another one bigger and better opens. What joy comes from this life.
I have been feeling like for a really long time that there is a little boy waiting to come into our family. What I didn't realize until a few months ago is that he is already here, waiting to be found by us, his family. The feeling is getting so much stronger that we are to search for our little boy.
When we started talking about adoption, before Donnie was deployed, I knew it was something we needed to do but was so uncomfortable with the idea. It wasn't the right time. Then we found out Donnie was getting deployed and had to stop, again, not the right time but I was relieved, not sad. I had it stuck in my head that the only way I would be happy with adding kids to our family was through us, biologically. I know that Heavenly Father prepares us for all things and that had I not gone through my life and trials I don't think I would be where I am now and ready to accept and fully open myself up to the idea of adoption.
What a blessing it is that these little babies can find homes that are better suited for them. Whether it's that they went to the wrong family ( I don't think so because God doesn't make mistakes) or that they just need more family (I'm thinking this might be it) we won't know but I do know that at this time in our lives adoption is going to work.
I am so excited about the possibility of our little boy. I know he's out there somewhere and it's just a matter of finding him. The first little boy that I fell in love with just by looking at him is a no go. We were told that we can't adopt out of state until six months after we finish the classes with DHR. They don't seem very interested however, in getting us started. Then yesterday something really strange happened. I have no idea if it's going to work out but it's a lead and that's what this life is all about, following the Spirit and following leads.
So a friend of mine, a dear friend of mine, was on Facebook yesterday and we were chatting and catching up and I told her we are going to adopt. She asked if we were going through the church and I said no. We really want to adopt a toddler. I want to have my own baby, which I know I will do someday, so we want a little bit older. Anyway, I told her we were going through the state and she asked how we felt about one that wasn't in the system and I said of course! We are open to all possibilities and she told me that a member of her family had a baby who is now 18 months old. We talked about it last night and we are definitely taking the lead. We were really excited about it. It's strange, I'm excited but calm. Those two things, I wasn't aware, could exist in the same place.
Anyway, we are waiting to hear back from her about what the grandparents want to do. She said they definitely want to be involved and how awesome is that? We would have three sets of grandparents for our kids! Not many are that blessed! So we are just waiting and praying. It's all very exciting! I'm going to have a little boy! EEEPPPP!!!!! Whether it's this boy or another, we are really excited! I'm even trying to think of what to do to the room. I'm thinking gray (thanks Corrie) with frogs. I love frogs. And then we can change it later to whatever but little boys like frogs right? How fun and so exciting! It's so true when one door closes another one bigger and better opens. What joy comes from this life.
Thursday, December 10, 2009
Run with the law. (or away from it, apparently)
On Tuesday my dear husband, who lost his drivers license, military ID, and the form used to get the National Guard tags renewed, went to get a new drivers license. He walks up to the desk and proceeds to go through the typical responses on losing a license and needing a new one. The response that follows (or something like it, edited a bit for dramatic effect, of course): "Sir, your license has been suspended and you need to contact the Cleburne County imbasils who screwed up royally and pay us thousands upon hundreds of thousands of dollars so we can hire people who actually have a brain" (Ok, granted, I'm being a little harder on the system than I should be, HA! right...)
He leaves and calls the court house and receives these delightful instructions from the lady on the phone: "Um, dumb head, you have a warrant out for your arrest and you have been fleeing from the law for over a year. Turn yourself in and the rest will be harmless." He then is able to talk to the wonderful, compasionate, patient, country boy judge this side has ever seen. "Son, (spits in spitune) (can't spell it but you get the idea), you were to appear in court in 2008 (spit) and upon failure to uh, do so, you were (spit) issued a warrant and your (spit) license (spit) was suspended (spit, spit, spit). You need to uh, come in with some papers that show us you had (spit) insurance on the days in question." Donnie's reply, "I WAS THERE TWO DAYS AFTER IT HAPPENED AND TURNED IN A COPY OF MY INSURANCE BECAUSE OF THE IDIOT PEOPLE YOU HAVE WORKING FOR YOU THIS IS HAPPENING!!!!!!"
Ok, so seriously, not really, the judge was wonderful and the ladies that worked there were so nice. We went in yesterday and waited to speak with the judge after being told there is a 272 dollar fine and then another 150 to get his license back. The judge null somethinginged the 272 and we are currently working on getting the other 150 taken away.
Because after all, if the failure to appear in court was sent to an address lived at four years prior, you can't very well expect one to know they have to appear in court. DUH!!!!! So here we are today, he has to call the court house back and get them to send over a letter head, signed by the judge letter, stating that they did in fact, send out a notice but sent it to the wrong address and then they will be able to reinstate his license at no cost. Our argument is that if the judge threw it out because they screwed up, then the license was NEVER suspended in the first place.
So for a day and a half I was knowingly aiding and abbedding (again, I have NO idea how to spell that, stupid spell checker thingy, what good is it if it doesn't know how to spell either?) a fugitive of the law. Who's going to be friends with me know?
He leaves and calls the court house and receives these delightful instructions from the lady on the phone: "Um, dumb head, you have a warrant out for your arrest and you have been fleeing from the law for over a year. Turn yourself in and the rest will be harmless." He then is able to talk to the wonderful, compasionate, patient, country boy judge this side has ever seen. "Son, (spits in spitune) (can't spell it but you get the idea), you were to appear in court in 2008 (spit) and upon failure to uh, do so, you were (spit) issued a warrant and your (spit) license (spit) was suspended (spit, spit, spit). You need to uh, come in with some papers that show us you had (spit) insurance on the days in question." Donnie's reply, "I WAS THERE TWO DAYS AFTER IT HAPPENED AND TURNED IN A COPY OF MY INSURANCE BECAUSE OF THE IDIOT PEOPLE YOU HAVE WORKING FOR YOU THIS IS HAPPENING!!!!!!"
Ok, so seriously, not really, the judge was wonderful and the ladies that worked there were so nice. We went in yesterday and waited to speak with the judge after being told there is a 272 dollar fine and then another 150 to get his license back. The judge null somethinginged the 272 and we are currently working on getting the other 150 taken away.
Because after all, if the failure to appear in court was sent to an address lived at four years prior, you can't very well expect one to know they have to appear in court. DUH!!!!! So here we are today, he has to call the court house back and get them to send over a letter head, signed by the judge letter, stating that they did in fact, send out a notice but sent it to the wrong address and then they will be able to reinstate his license at no cost. Our argument is that if the judge threw it out because they screwed up, then the license was NEVER suspended in the first place.
So for a day and a half I was knowingly aiding and abbedding (again, I have NO idea how to spell that, stupid spell checker thingy, what good is it if it doesn't know how to spell either?) a fugitive of the law. Who's going to be friends with me know?
Tuesday, December 1, 2009
Our process of adoption....
Adopting is something that we have always wanted to do and for one reason or another have been dragging our feet and coming up with every excuse under the sun as to why not to do it. Well, the thinking and praying and that nagging feeling you have to do something hasn't gone away. We have decided to pursue this path at this time. I guess this is where I will keep people updated. It will be much easier.
So far we are at the paper work stage. We are going to go through DHR or the state rather than the church. As much as we would love to have a new born, debt isn't the way to bring a child into this world, and that is the only way we could do it if we had to pay large amounts for it. It is so sad to me to think of all the kids out there that need homes and can't have them because people can't afford to get them.
We are opening up every door possible to add to our family. We have been emailing back and forth trying to find the right people to contact. I think we may have found the person. We aren't picky about gender or race but we want a healthy baby and will not take anyone that is older than Josey. We are excited about the possibility that this new avenue will bring and are grateful to those of you wanting to share in our journey.
I'm also finding it hilarious how difficult it has been for me to choose a blog background! There are just too many cute ones. Too funny!
So far we are at the paper work stage. We are going to go through DHR or the state rather than the church. As much as we would love to have a new born, debt isn't the way to bring a child into this world, and that is the only way we could do it if we had to pay large amounts for it. It is so sad to me to think of all the kids out there that need homes and can't have them because people can't afford to get them.
We are opening up every door possible to add to our family. We have been emailing back and forth trying to find the right people to contact. I think we may have found the person. We aren't picky about gender or race but we want a healthy baby and will not take anyone that is older than Josey. We are excited about the possibility that this new avenue will bring and are grateful to those of you wanting to share in our journey.
I'm also finding it hilarious how difficult it has been for me to choose a blog background! There are just too many cute ones. Too funny!
Wednesday, November 25, 2009
I'm thankful for the eternal perspective...
To know that there is a reason for all things is perhaps the most comforting knowledge of all. Not only that there is a reason, but that, as a wise friend has reminded me, Heavenly Father knows that reason. He is the one in charge of my life and because of that everything is always okay.
I am thankful during this thanksgiving holiday season that I have a family that I love with all my heart and that I am blessed to spend eternity with them. That is reason enough to be happy. But wait, there's more! I'm thankful that Josey still loves to run and snuggle up with me at night before falling asleep, I'm thankful for her getting jealous over the DOG sitting in my lap at night, too cute, I'm thankful that she is so smart and so beautiful, I'm thankful that I have been blessed to have her in my life. I'm thankful for my children that Heavenly Father has with Him. What a blessing to know of their safety and the warmth and comfort they get daily.
The hardest thing for me in this whole trying to get pregnant experience is truly turning things over to the Lord. I thought for so long that if I wasn't going to doctors and I wasn't taking the medicine and watching everything and trying all the time that meant I wasn't doing ALL I could and then turn it all over to the Lord. But I realized today that in doing all those things, For me and me alone, I'm not turning it over to the Lord. When I was receiving those promptings a few months ago I wasn't on any drugs and I wasn't doing anything but exercising. I was told by Heavenly Father to lose weight and my body would work right. I have lost weight and the month I did nothing was the month I miscarried, but I did get pregnant.
So now I'm done. I'm giving over everything to Him. I'm done with the drugs, I'm done with the temperature taking every morning, I'm done with expectations of what I think is right. I'm going to live my life and enjoy it with my beautiful blessing of a daughter and I'm going to try with EVERYTHING I am NOT to be angry or hurt when I find out other people are pregnant. I'm done physically trying. I'm going to read my scriptures, keep the commandments and give up this crazy drive I have of control. I have never really given my life to the Lord and it's going to be a huge process. It's going to take so much but I am GOING TO DO IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
So here's my plan for the future. Fasting, praying, reading my scriptures, serving others, being a good example, fulfilling my calling, enjoying my hubby, enjoying my baby, and enjoying my life. If and when it is time to happen again, Heavenly Father will make it happen. I'm done trying to control it and I'm done month to month hoping. I have a deep hope that someday it will happen but I know my life, and the lives of those around me will be much better if I let go of this part of my life and truly turn it over to the Lord. It's going to be really hard and I'm going to try not to be afraid, afraid of failure, afraid that Heavenly Father won't ever bless me, afraid of not having control. I HAVE to do this! I HAVE TO DO THIS!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Please help me. I know I can't do it alone.
I'm thankful that I have the Holy Ghost in my life to help guide me to the people I need most in one moment. The people that know exactly what to say. I received a blessing awhile ago and was told that I just need to listen to those around me and that the Holy Ghost will speak through them. It is so true and I am so grateful for priesthood blessings. I have gotten over this month of hurt and disappointment and anger very quickly because I took heed to what Heavenly Father has told me to do. I'm done living my life month to month and I'm going to start living it day to day. Enjoying everyone that I am blessed to live in.
I'm going to do what I can to change the world, my little girl at a time:)
I am thankful during this thanksgiving holiday season that I have a family that I love with all my heart and that I am blessed to spend eternity with them. That is reason enough to be happy. But wait, there's more! I'm thankful that Josey still loves to run and snuggle up with me at night before falling asleep, I'm thankful for her getting jealous over the DOG sitting in my lap at night, too cute, I'm thankful that she is so smart and so beautiful, I'm thankful that I have been blessed to have her in my life. I'm thankful for my children that Heavenly Father has with Him. What a blessing to know of their safety and the warmth and comfort they get daily.
The hardest thing for me in this whole trying to get pregnant experience is truly turning things over to the Lord. I thought for so long that if I wasn't going to doctors and I wasn't taking the medicine and watching everything and trying all the time that meant I wasn't doing ALL I could and then turn it all over to the Lord. But I realized today that in doing all those things, For me and me alone, I'm not turning it over to the Lord. When I was receiving those promptings a few months ago I wasn't on any drugs and I wasn't doing anything but exercising. I was told by Heavenly Father to lose weight and my body would work right. I have lost weight and the month I did nothing was the month I miscarried, but I did get pregnant.
So now I'm done. I'm giving over everything to Him. I'm done with the drugs, I'm done with the temperature taking every morning, I'm done with expectations of what I think is right. I'm going to live my life and enjoy it with my beautiful blessing of a daughter and I'm going to try with EVERYTHING I am NOT to be angry or hurt when I find out other people are pregnant. I'm done physically trying. I'm going to read my scriptures, keep the commandments and give up this crazy drive I have of control. I have never really given my life to the Lord and it's going to be a huge process. It's going to take so much but I am GOING TO DO IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
So here's my plan for the future. Fasting, praying, reading my scriptures, serving others, being a good example, fulfilling my calling, enjoying my hubby, enjoying my baby, and enjoying my life. If and when it is time to happen again, Heavenly Father will make it happen. I'm done trying to control it and I'm done month to month hoping. I have a deep hope that someday it will happen but I know my life, and the lives of those around me will be much better if I let go of this part of my life and truly turn it over to the Lord. It's going to be really hard and I'm going to try not to be afraid, afraid of failure, afraid that Heavenly Father won't ever bless me, afraid of not having control. I HAVE to do this! I HAVE TO DO THIS!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Please help me. I know I can't do it alone.
I'm thankful that I have the Holy Ghost in my life to help guide me to the people I need most in one moment. The people that know exactly what to say. I received a blessing awhile ago and was told that I just need to listen to those around me and that the Holy Ghost will speak through them. It is so true and I am so grateful for priesthood blessings. I have gotten over this month of hurt and disappointment and anger very quickly because I took heed to what Heavenly Father has told me to do. I'm done living my life month to month and I'm going to start living it day to day. Enjoying everyone that I am blessed to live in.
I'm going to do what I can to change the world, my little girl at a time:)
Thursday, November 19, 2009
Heavenly Father really loves me and is always looking out for me. He knows my heart and He knows the struggles I will endure before they arrive. I can't imagine how heartbreaking it must be for Him to see us, love us and want the best for us, yet still know what is coming and the heartache it will cause.
I know that through the atonement of Jesus Christ I have become a stronger person and I rely more completely on the Lord in my daily life. I am so grateful for my family and friends and for the strength they are to me. I know that in the end these trials of life will all somehow make sense and that right now they don't need to make sense. All that matters, all that I need to know is that Heavenly Father has it all under control.
Somehow that makes unbearable much better.
I know that through the atonement of Jesus Christ I have become a stronger person and I rely more completely on the Lord in my daily life. I am so grateful for my family and friends and for the strength they are to me. I know that in the end these trials of life will all somehow make sense and that right now they don't need to make sense. All that matters, all that I need to know is that Heavenly Father has it all under control.
Somehow that makes unbearable much better.
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